K. Tyler McKenzie

Its been a long time!

Gosh its been a long time! Mainly because I have been doing so many different stuff! That whenever I get in the mood to just let out my emotions I dance! Dance has become my stress reliever, my therapy!

To me it is such a gift, I just love doing it so much and just love being able to express myself through it!

Do I love dance more than theatre!?

It is official that I will be double academying next year! Theatre & Dance! And I will be the first one to do that! Which makes me idk happy in a way!

i am just very excited for next year! 

What WAS wrong with me today!?

A lot of people today asked me..

“whats wrong tyler?”

i didnt really have the strength or knowledge to give the answer.

I tried figuring that out myself. Why was I so down today!? I guess its okay! I needed a weekend! I needed this weekend! I have so much to do for school and stuff and I only have little time to complete all of this! I am so scared about this 6 weeks grades and finals! I am just so nervous I am going to screw up everything! 

But i have yet to find something that MAKES ME want to be SERIOUS and get focused! No one is helping me!

7:20 am

Journey is about finished and almost ready to be performed TOMORROW! ah! Tonights rehearsal is going to be killer! But after Journey is finished I will no longer be accepting anymore shows! Except for Theatre Class in School!

Speaking of - that class is getting very good and very bad! I love the assignment he has given us and I tried to choose people that were abnormal. ha! I mean… Most of the people chose those who could right well or sing well or you know! I chose those with a sense of real life. 

I can definitely say our play is going to pretty amazing! I really wish we could go in depth with it but we can’t! 

What is bad about the class? - There is someone in the class who just can’t shut up about my dropping out of the play. She continues to spread rumors on how it will affect my chances of getting into UCPE’s next show and on how I am undedicated. I only have one thing to show from her little thoughts. Look at how many shows you have been in and look at how many shows i have been in with UCPE. You’ve been outnumbered. Better yet look at all the shows you’ve done this year in Total compared to me. Seriously your number is so little now wonder you have no idea why I am tired! Not even including dancing at SFAC and working weekends and 2 days in the school week!

It is amazing how blogging can help you understand what most DO NOT UNDERSTAND about you. In her case, she understands just about NOTHING. And its getting to the point where I will not bother to say something to her but God knows she will never understand why I am not talking to her because she is two faced and doesn’t listen to what she is saying and she thinks way to high of herself! 

Every Theatre Class I think in CATA has that one person who just gives everyone red angry moods & faces. And of course you are one of them.

Light in Weight

Ever since I quit Godspell I feel like I have been granted more air to breathe, more numbers on the clock to sleep and think, and more cells in my brain to complete my studies! Thursday and Friday were horrible considering I had a great amount of people asking me why I quit! Yesterday was pretty bad because I was at Target and The Rushs were there! Matthew Rush’s parents and I told them about it as well and then we talked about colleges and they gave me this confidence that it’ll be okay! As I write this I lay in my bed with both windows opens and the blinds are open as well letting in the amazing sun light! I hear birds and mowing and just the air looking for places to go! Bottles that been opened and plants that are calling its name! Its beautiful outside! I really want to get out of the house before work! I’m thinking of maybe taking a shower and then going to the mall! South Park Mall! I probably won’t even buy anything! I just want to stroll! And see what’s new! Maybe see some people I know and some people I don’t know!

Godspell. Reason for Quitting. Message to the Cast!

I have a feeling everyone is going to come up to me and ask why I quit the show! I have that feeling because many people are coming up to me already and asking why! Truth is I dont know how they found out so quickly!

But.. I quit because I have done about 5 shows consecutively since school started and I am just very very tired! I just got back into taking dance at Sports & Fine Arts Center and I already love it there! Im ready to “learn” more than actually “do”! You know what I mean!?

I want my technique in all fields to grow before college auditions! And I want my grades to increase! 

So By the looks of it the last show I’m doing this year is Journey! In which I have yet to memorize my lines because I have been focused and a ton of things but now I can actually sit down and read through them! 

Tomorrow Is the last day before school ends for a three day weekend! I have rehearsal on Friday so Hopefully i will have most of my lines memorized by then! I work tomorrow so I wont have time until after work! 

But there you have it! The reason i Quit Godspell!

To the CAST!

I am very very sorry I let you guys down! I feel horrible but at the same time very light in weight. Most of you know that I’ve been sooo soo busy and its taking its toll on me! And i need to focus a little more on my grades and technique in my craft!

If this causes any tension in our friendship then I guess you werent meant to be my friend because you would support my decision and help me try and become a little less stressed! I assure you that I’ve tried to help many of you before! 

But i love you guys! And I hope that the show can still go on!

Word is Cameron Bass will be playing Jesus! Which is awesome! Hopefully everything works out!

Wicked : The Master Class

It was about 8:30 am when the some members of Sports & Fine Arts Center met up at the studio. I drove my car 4 other girls with me. We had an amazing but somewhat long ride to the Davidson Dancers Studio! The Studio is very nice!

We get there and the Davidson girls are in black leotards and pink tights! All of us were in solid (COLORED) dance clothes, I in blue pulled up sweats and white/blue shirt with the sleeves cut off! We felt a little out of place and yet still stretched and it didnt feel intimidated.

The guy, gets here! Funny thing I never heard his name! ha! But he has the most amazing body and a siz pack like bulging out of his shirt! I felt so horrible about myself. But he was so nice, and ha!… definitley gay. 

WE started with a warmup to a remix of Please Dont Stop the Music! It was great! I was sweating but so was he so I didnt feel to you know OUT THERE! But It showed that I was working and not just doing the warm up.

We then did some ballet center work which was just simple tondues. Nothing CRAZY! Which I love. We started doing some across the floor. All of choreography was pretty difficult. It was just very new! It was a combination of musical theatre, ballet, and jazz! But I gave everything my all, and if I didnt understand the steps I asked people next to me and they were awesome. I tried my best!

Finally, we learned a combination used in “Dancing Through Life.” I understood some moves! But I never actually did it perfect through out! I mean come on not even Broadway people can learn it in one day! They go home keep doing it and then get the chance to come into rehearsal and get their steps “cleaned.” Not even Ms. Lesley FULLY understood some of the choreography!

As a teacher he was very good okay. He taught us some things, however did it differently when he showed it! But I gave him credit because he had a show to do this afternoon. 

We also had a question & answer and he answered a ton of our questions if not ALL of them! However, we asked him to sing but he refused. He said he was still embarressed! You would think being on Broadway would help you change and grow your confidence! But I guess not? 

Altogether I had a lot of fun with my friends taking this class! I’ve decided to become a full time member of Sports & Fine Arts Center. I will be taking Monday (Ballet & Modern/Jazz). I work on Tuesdays so I can not take the Tuesday classes! And I will work harder to lose weight and just get fit! I honestly do not have time and money to go to the gym every morning or/and night. It just can not happen! So I will work out at home and just try to stay consistent in dance! Taking classes can only help me. 

This class really helped me.

Dearly Departed has Ended

Tonight was the last performance of Dearly Departed! It was awesome! But instead having a break! There is none! I go into Journey and Godspell! In which, yes, I am excited, but its still a lot! I have so many things to do for school tomorrow! But Tomorrow is going to be amazing because I am going to a master class taught by the cast of Wicked! I am so excited! Ah! Hopefully I do well and just have a good time and learn something! But after that I have to do so many different projects! Ah! How will I survive!?

The show is tonight!

Dearly Departed opens tonight! And I’m nervous! Not for anyone else but myself because I’m not confident with my lines! Like I know them but there is no way of practicing them! Everyone has someone to study with but most of my lines are not directed to someone so I can’t study with anyone! Gosh I really hope we have a good performance! We are rehearsing act one right now in class and its funny! Its actually funny! And yeah! We have had only a few missed cues and some sound difficulties! But that’s all!! I really hope we get a good turnout! I’ve been promoting the show like crazy! Its been amazingly easy since I have my phone to do all of that! So it doesn’t seem like much work! Ha! I really do love my theater class and everyone in it! GO THEATRE 3!

Trying to get serious about school…

How does that work! I really am looking for feedback…

It is just so hard to balance school, theatre, work, money, and personal life. The harder one becomes the harder everything else becomes as well! I am at the peak of my school year and I am not doing to well in my classes! Ive been looking for ways to keep serious and just try and become, i dont know, stable emotionally, mentally, and somewhat physically for the remainder of the school year! But it is just not happening!

Ive tried organization and I am great at that everything is in my Blackberry and my day planner and I’m pretty good at time management. I guess I get distracted easily and I dont know how to restrict myself from, well avoiding the distractions and NOT procrastinating! 

What is my issue? What and How do I become serious about school? I need something! How do you do it?

I’ve been reading blogs by college students and they make it sound so easy getting into the college and the years it took to get there! Why can’t it be easy for me too?  

This is the first blog I’ve ever posted that I’ve asked this many questions in. I really need some answers. My blog here on Tumblr.com does not have a commenting feature so please email me at

tylermckenzie (at) vzw (dot) blackberry (dot) com

you would be saving my life before I truly FALL in all my classes!

What is it like to be Jesus!?

I was casted as Jesus in Central Academy’s musical “Godspell” today! I’m not as excited as I would be if this were being done by say UCPE (UNION COUNTY PERFORMANCE ENSEMBLE). Dont get me wrong I am excited but its such a weird role to receive! Especially when I dont believe in him. I guess it would be like playing any other character because to me Jesus isnt real and I just have to abide by the “stereotype” of how Jesus would act I guess, because there are no true facts about him!

Wow this could turn into a huge debate but its okay! This will change the look of my resume forever! ah!

Dearly Departed Progress Journal #1

Altogether today was pretty great! I actually was able to pay attention in my classes and the Theater III class was invited to an online video conference with the producer Dorrie Bernstein I believe is her name! She produced Legally Blonde the Musical which is an amazing show and Caroline or Change and old musical which is not running anymore but had great music! The conference was amazing I really think I learned a lot! Bernstein directed a documentary about the behind the scenes of a Broadway show and the parts we were able to see, since time was running out, was amazing and I think some of us are planning to stay after school and watch it! That means I’m going to have to call in at work and tell them ill be late because I have to stay after to school! I am hoping I get to stay! We are in Theatre now and we are rehearsing Dearly Departed! At first I didn’t know what to think about the show but now I think this is a very good show and a great challenge but huge opportunity for us because we all get to be free and choose our own blocking for most of the scenes! We all get creative insight on our characters! I think this show will be a huge turnout as long as we all promote the show enough! I don’t want this show to be a waste of time! I’m going to try my hardest to tell everyone about the show and get as many people to come! I’m watching them rehearse a scene and everyone is participating very well in choosing what to do and how! When I watch this I can’t wait to see what it looks like on stage! I just wanted to let everyone know that the show is going well and I have huge expectations for the performance! I Better get ready to go on I’m in the next scene!